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she`s running out of time and the unexpected scares the hell out of her. another dawn it`s just around the corner and nobody knows what it just might bring. limitations narrow her ways; she`s powerless and indecidisive.
curly actions take their course into the unknown , her heart gets ready to beat all over again. never knows what life has in store. she wants to share and compare, adore and never bore, laugh and slap, cry and lye , dance and romance, she wants to fall into pieces and get herself together in his arms. it`s just the part of her that needs to be caressed , embraced and loved. she`s a machinery that kills dreams and hopes in order to release new desires,set new goals, more or less attainable. she uses love as primary fuel and gets rusty when forgotten.
she needs him in order to complete her, she cherishes his footsteps in the sand when she covers them with her own , she tells him how precious he is, because he`s seen through her eyes .
tears go down her cheeks, covering the smile he put on her face when he sweet talked. She was ready to hear bells, but all she can enjoy it`s the silence breaking it`s echo over the sadness.
she was well aware when he trapped her into his heart, locked her inside and got back to his realistic way of life, he`s got errands to run.
Wish he could stop the marathon and take a look around, notice the details and then release her.
The more grief she gathers, the stronger her desires become. When he doesn`t hear her words, she sinks them in the sea of sarcasm and promises herself to never use them again.
Written words are silent swords, cutting deep thru her illusions. she sees what she feels and still, takes the agony for granted. The world is chaotic and all that matters is the bond that keeps them together. she dislikes being torn apart by ignorance, forgotton in a corner , haunted by happy moments which will help her make it thru the night. Nothing can stop her from loving and nobody has the right to take advantage of light.
Time is ticking, drop by drop, clear waters flodding the sky, flames fading away, lilies have mud on their petals...

ACT X
Leaves are falling slowly, almost dying
I can`t watch`em, feel like crying.
I won`t afford to smile anytime soon
Well, I`m overwhelmed, sorrow`s in bloom.

It`s funny how the play became a drama
Here`s the dagger... I can`t even hug my mamma
The Above Director gave me the best part
Damned, against all odds, I need to stay smart.

This is a foolish trap!'' I scream
And desperately want this dream
Quickly to be happy ended
No more, I`ve been enough stranded.

Raindrops sent to wash my sorrow,
Help me make it thru tomorrow
Wind that whispers in my ears,
Help me defeat my own fears.

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my spirit is a dove, whose broken wings
make silent covers for the rusty dreams

although i`m deaf and this is an illusion
which gives me thrills and spreads confusion
as chaotic and nostalgic as it may seem
it`s my pain shield, my day - dream

they talk and move and make new plans
and eat and run and learn to dance
they shape life as an exciting plot
and when one dies, untights the knot

cause what is life, I dare to ask?
should it be about wearing masks?
I guess the weakness makes me strong
because I know where I belong

Darkish thought
I have a chain of questions 'round my neck
It's hard to , but try to keep me on the deck.
I wanna fly high up to the bloomy clouds
I'm coping with fear and my anger weights 100 pounds.

I walk and feel the solid ground beneath my feet;
I wanna build a bridge, but the pieces won't fit.
Before melting into the nature, I wanna leave a mark,
A candle burning slowly, 'cause around will be dark.

The rain will be spreading the stars on the sky
The day will be dawning and no one would cry.
I'll be gone with the wind, a shaddow who passed,
A tormented heart who nobody carressed

QUEEN OF BOREDOM


it`s a jungle out there, you know
people walking through the snow;
children crying in the morning.
winter season barely dawning.

got bored with all this terror!
people, puppets lacking style,
performing artists in a horror
seem to be real for a while.

they try to get me to the sacred path
of knowledge; maybe they`re blind
just making fool of themselves, thus
the joy of life they`ll never find

poor souls, i`ve never seen the light
springing from your tired eyes;
i`m back to life,so long, sleep tight.
when silence ends i`ll break the ties.

ATTITUDE

Cheer up my soul, sweet purple wine
Let me be dizzy, `cause he`s not mine
I touch the glas gently,instead of his lips
Well, he broke my heart with his very last kiss

So, if I catch the lovely cupid
I will damage all his arrows
Then I`ll kick the little stupid
Cause he paid me lots of sorrows

Let it be this way, it is more secure,
Just me, myself and I along the way
There is no more pain I have to endure
We only live once and I have my way

IT`S GETTING DARK


It`s getting dark, I`m confused
My heart`s broken, the sky`s falling;
I feel the pain inside my brain.
I prayed for you, my friend, but you`re not coming.

I ask myself:''why am I dreaming?''
Hundreds of questions invade my loneliness.
Wish I was dead, `cause all my life
I`ve been desperately looking for happiness.

Poor me, I was such a fool,
Looking for gold , got stuck in mud
Now I feel I`m going down...
I wanna die... you should be proud.

I`ll get rid of pain and sorrow
Of those who claimed to be my friends;
I`ll get rid of lies... tomorrow
I`ll have blood on my hands.

It`s getting dark... became annoyed
I feel like sinking in the sea.
My heart is going with the wind
I know it was meant to be

IMPRISONED

I cant afford the luxury of dreaming
And my whole world looks like going down.
Tired of false illusions , feel like screaming
And tens of gloomy clouds came above town.

I'm trapped in here , my life's a question mark
I need some answers which only God reveals
My head is spinning , everywhere is dark
Going on ain't easy, living gives me thrills.

Too many lies made my ears deaf , so
I don't give credit to the evening whisper
People and facts , they come and go
Being predestined by the Secret Twister.

Autumnal Embrace
Mood:  amorous
the autumn`s here and u are near
but in u`r arms, i know no fear
come closer cause i wanna hear
u`r breath,whispering in my ear.


yellow leaves and reddish skies
my love, the mirror in your eyes
it`s your soul, blossoming flower
i see courage, love and power.

i see me embracing you
pure and kind and fresh and true
us holding hands,just passing by
me and you, under the sky.

Waterdrops
Mood:  amorous
waterdrops... i gather them in my trembling hands
i nurture them, i watch them, i grow them
plus a wish that slips from my thoughts,into my hands
the metamorphosis leads to a soul shaped silver
that belongs to me. it`s mine! i feel like shouting outloud
i did it! it`s my vision of love.
there`s this sound softly getting in my ears
the song born on my heart`s strings
the simphony in Ro major it`s going to be a blast
cause this time, the prince came barefoot
no more dirty boots marching in my soul
just a fresh morning breeze and a pair of brown eyes
vivid looks gently carress my sleepy face
he is here to love me.