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One
day, I found myself on the
streets of Jerusalem. What was I doing there? one may ask.
Well, for years I`ve been burdened by questions without
any plausible answers. I`ve tried to find them in books, but got even more puzzled. Torn between tradition one has to fallow
and obey, and my inmost desire to find my meaning, I`ve stepped into the old church and hoped for the miracle to happen. To
my surprise, I didn`t feel anything. Just took pictures and got amused by the huge belly priest who guided us. Too many candles,
too many icons, sacred images and no God. I felt deserted, empty, useless. If I wasn`t able to ''find'' Him in the Holly Jerusalem,
where else should I have looked for?
While trying to find God, He found me. I was making
efforts to cope with my own fears, struggling, tears in my eyes, sorrow in my heart. God came into my life when I felt most
humble. Although it`s very difficult to explain, I felt peace was taking over my heart, for the first time in many years.
Till then, I wasn`t able to truley give or accept love form my fellow human beings, I was just imprisoned within myself. All
of a sudden, I `ve realised how blessed I am and that I should grow my dreams and live my life having God as a partner.
So far, i fell in love with Israel. It just gets to your heart.
It`s not the people, but the land which keeps me here.
A charismatic place, an exciting mixture of modern and oriental aromas.
As an European, I took the liberty of enjoying the bargaining, of eating falafel, humus and tahina, almost like a native.
I may compare the Israeli experience to a field of snow; (such a paradox!)
the footprints left in the snow are deep and determined and they
are heading towards a home in which the fireplace is tenderly spreading its familiar warmth. The footprints in my
heart are the moments I`ve spent in here, my life lesson. It didn`t kill me , emotionally and spiritually, it made me
stronger.
The fireplace with its warmth it`s my inmost wish to feel connected
with the people I love. It`s my burning desire to accomplish my goals, and let the ones I care about know that I am with them.
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