QUEEN OF BOREDOM

it`s a jungle out there, you know
people walking through the snow;
children crying in the morning.
winter season barely dawning.

got bored with all this terror!
people, puppets lacking style,
performing artists in a horror
seem to be real for a while.

they try to get me to the sacred path
of knowledge; maybe they`re blind
just making fool of themselves, thus
the joy of life they`ll never find

poor souls, i`ve never seen the light
springing from your tired eyes;
i`m back to life,so long, sleep tight.
when silence ends i`ll break the ties.

IMPRISONED

I cant afford the luxury of dreaming
And my whole world looks like going down.
Tired of false illusions , feel like screaming
And tens of gloomy clouds came above town.

I'm trapped in here , my life's a question mark
I need some answers which only God reveals
My head is spinning , everywhere is dark
Going on ain't easy, living gives me thrills.

Too many lies made my ears deaf , so
I don't give credit to the evening whisper
People and facts , they come and go
Being predestined by the Secret Twister.

DARKISH THOUGHT

I have a chain of questions 'round my neck
It's hard to , but try to keep me on the deck.
I wanna fly high up to the bloomy clouds
I'm coping with fear and my anger weights 100 pounds.

I walk and feel the solid ground beneath my feet;
I wanna build a bridge, but the pieces won't fit.
Before melting into the nature, I wanna leave a mark,
A candle burning slowly, 'cause around will be dark.

The rain will be spreading the stars on the sky
The day will be dawning and no one would cry.
I'll be gone with the wind, a shaddow who passed,
A tormented heart who nobody carressed

I WAS TOLD

I was told once to fully worship and believe
Although I wasn`t even able to perceive
I was told stories about human kind
Taught to give, forgive, pretend I`m blind

Blink of an eye, I had my universe destroyed
I became frightened, shocked, amazed, annoyed
I thought people would help me overpass
They didn`t... only pushed me to collapse.

I`ve never seen the mercy in their eyes
They know only to cheat, to steal and to tell lies
How could I ever trust a single word
When their tongues cut me like a sword?

How could I take my time to smell the flowers
When the rainbow bows in front of chaos
And the leaves prepare a diabolic feast
No cross, no candles, not even a priest

NEW ATTITUDE


Cheer up my soul, sweet purple wine
Let me be dizzy, `cause he`s not mine
I touch the glas gently,instead of his lips
Well, he broke my heart with his very last kiss

So, if I catch the lovely cupid
I will damage all his arrows
Then I`ll kick the little stupid
Cause he paid me lots of sorrows

Let it be this way, it is more secure,
Just me, myself and I along the way
There is no more pain I have to endure
We only live once and I have my way.

IT`S GETTING DARK


It`s getting dark, I`m confused
My heart`s broken, the sky`s falling;
I feel the pain inside my brain.
I prayed for you, my friend, but you`re not coming.

I ask myself:''why am I dreaming?''
Hundreds of questions invade my loneliness.
Wish I was dead, `cause all my life
I`ve been desperately looking for happiness.

Poor me, I was such a fool,
Looking for gold , got stuck in mud
Now I feel I`m going down...
I wanna die... you should be proud.

I`ll get rid of pain and sorrow
Of those who claimed to be my friends;
I`ll get rid of lies... tomorrow
I`ll have blood on my hands.

It`s getting dark... became annoyed
I feel like sinking in the sea.
My heart is going with the wind
I know it was meant to be