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my spirit is a dove, whose broken wings
make silent covers for the rusty dreams

although i`m deaf and this is an illusion
which gives me thrills and spreads confusion
as chaotic and nostalgic as it may seem
it`s my pain shield, my day - dream

they talk and move and make new plans
and eat and run and learn to dance
they shape life as an exciting plot
and when one dies, untights the knot

cause what is life, I dare to ask?
should it be about wearing masks?
I guess the weakness makes me strong
because I know where I belong

Darkish thought
I have a chain of questions 'round my neck
It's hard to , but try to keep me on the deck.
I wanna fly high up to the bloomy clouds
I'm coping with fear and my anger weights 100 pounds.

I walk and feel the solid ground beneath my feet;
I wanna build a bridge, but the pieces won't fit.
Before melting into the nature, I wanna leave a mark,
A candle burning slowly, 'cause around will be dark.

The rain will be spreading the stars on the sky
The day will be dawning and no one would cry.
I'll be gone with the wind, a shaddow who passed,
A tormented heart who nobody carressed

QUEEN OF BOREDOM


it`s a jungle out there, you know
people walking through the snow;
children crying in the morning.
winter season barely dawning.

got bored with all this terror!
people, puppets lacking style,
performing artists in a horror
seem to be real for a while.

they try to get me to the sacred path
of knowledge; maybe they`re blind
just making fool of themselves, thus
the joy of life they`ll never find

poor souls, i`ve never seen the light
springing from your tired eyes;
i`m back to life,so long, sleep tight.
when silence ends i`ll break the ties.

ATTITUDE

Cheer up my soul, sweet purple wine
Let me be dizzy, `cause he`s not mine
I touch the glas gently,instead of his lips
Well, he broke my heart with his very last kiss

So, if I catch the lovely cupid
I will damage all his arrows
Then I`ll kick the little stupid
Cause he paid me lots of sorrows

Let it be this way, it is more secure,
Just me, myself and I along the way
There is no more pain I have to endure
We only live once and I have my way

IT`S GETTING DARK


It`s getting dark, I`m confused
My heart`s broken, the sky`s falling;
I feel the pain inside my brain.
I prayed for you, my friend, but you`re not coming.

I ask myself:''why am I dreaming?''
Hundreds of questions invade my loneliness.
Wish I was dead, `cause all my life
I`ve been desperately looking for happiness.

Poor me, I was such a fool,
Looking for gold , got stuck in mud
Now I feel I`m going down...
I wanna die... you should be proud.

I`ll get rid of pain and sorrow
Of those who claimed to be my friends;
I`ll get rid of lies... tomorrow
I`ll have blood on my hands.

It`s getting dark... became annoyed
I feel like sinking in the sea.
My heart is going with the wind
I know it was meant to be

IMPRISONED

I cant afford the luxury of dreaming
And my whole world looks like going down.
Tired of false illusions , feel like screaming
And tens of gloomy clouds came above town.

I'm trapped in here , my life's a question mark
I need some answers which only God reveals
My head is spinning , everywhere is dark
Going on ain't easy, living gives me thrills.

Too many lies made my ears deaf , so
I don't give credit to the evening whisper
People and facts , they come and go
Being predestined by the Secret Twister.

Autumnal Embrace
Mood:  amorous
the autumn`s here and u are near
but in u`r arms, i know no fear
come closer cause i wanna hear
u`r breath,whispering in my ear.


yellow leaves and reddish skies
my love, the mirror in your eyes
it`s your soul, blossoming flower
i see courage, love and power.

i see me embracing you
pure and kind and fresh and true
us holding hands,just passing by
me and you, under the sky.

Waterdrops
Mood:  amorous
waterdrops... i gather them in my trembling hands
i nurture them, i watch them, i grow them
plus a wish that slips from my thoughts,into my hands
the metamorphosis leads to a soul shaped silver
that belongs to me. it`s mine! i feel like shouting outloud
i did it! it`s my vision of love.
there`s this sound softly getting in my ears
the song born on my heart`s strings
the simphony in Ro major it`s going to be a blast
cause this time, the prince came barefoot
no more dirty boots marching in my soul
just a fresh morning breeze and a pair of brown eyes
vivid looks gently carress my sleepy face
he is here to love me.

to you
Mood:  amorous
i wish i had a guitar,
so i could sing this to you:
''
morning smiles and blue waters
i`m sailing among the clouds
summer dreams and autumn leaves
embraced in an echo,shaping my window.
the prince it`s near
i can almost hear
his footsteps climbing the day
my heart`s in my ears
there are no more fears
cause today i`m meeting Happiness.
i`ll read love poems on your lips
i`ll see love`s candle burning in u`r eyes.
i knew i`m gonna meet love one day,
but i didn`t picture it will look like you.

Aching
Mood:  amorous
deeper loneliness
a sharp knife that cuts thru my dreams
it makes me weak and leaves scars
i was given a burden to carry out
whose sins am I paying for?
my heart is aching for some human touch
i am longing for you.
innocent guilt, bitter sweet illusions
a drop of happiness, a glass of sorrow
what god should i worship
what soul should i borrow .

my eyes are blue although i`m brown eyed
the smile on my face froze when u left
till we will see again, i will worship memories.
the more i love you the powerful i become.
loneliness it`s the tribute i pay
for every moment spent with you.
time it`s my enemy and faith it`s my weapon
if i have to climb this mountain of solitude
i will do it each time, cause u`r on the other side.

the best of it all starts when it all ends
your gentle arms around my shoulders
the firm voice telling me love words
it`s a trial of tears, a battle of fears
the winner is us chained by love.